It’s around that time of the year again where I clean out my closet/shoe room. Plus taking time off from work is starting to get to me… I’m so bored. I actually haven’t done it in about a year or two. I got rid of a few pairs of shoes and makeup I never wore a few months ago but that didn’t make a dent in anything. Today I’m going to go through everything and donate things I’ve never worn or just don’t like anymore. I don’t like hoarding or just having a shitload of clothes just for having it so before I go out and buy a whole bunch of clothes I think it’s only practical to get rid of things that are just sitting there taking up useless space. I love organizing/cleaning so this should be fun!
Greece, or just the Mediterranean in general sounds like a nice idea. Since we’re 99% sure Ryan will be deploying either at the end of this year or sometime early next year, whether we PCS or not, I think going on a nice vacation after deployment would be nice. We use to go on vacation all the time back in college but since he’s commissioned he’s been in school, training then deployment… and now he’s getting ready to be deployed again. The first year of our marriage I was alone, and now that he’s home it’s all about work for the both of us so we just can’t find the time to go on a vacation. I just want to get away and spend some quality time with him away from everybody else. I was looking up different resorts all over the world and I stumbled across this package where its a 12 day island hop of a few Greek Islands and it also included a 2 day stay in Turkey. I’ve always wanted to visit that part of the world so I think I want to surprise him with a nice vacation. He never asks for anything so I think this would be a nice gift to show my appreciation for all that he does. I know it seems so far away to be planning something like this because we still have months to go before he even starts preparing for deployment but shit, I just need something good to look forward to. Idk, I just think would be nice to get away for a while…
This morning I woke up with a massive headache. My surgery is coming up & I came to find out yesterday that Ryan wouldn’t be able to be with me the day I come home after the surgery. He just became Company XO and he’s constantly gone or busy so I’m guessing that’s why his Commander said no. He probably wont even be able to go to the 2 pre-op appointments with me either because he has school and some other stuff that is going to keep him really busy. My podiatrist said I would need someone to help me for the first few days so I have no idea what I’m going to do. My dad will be in the Middle East somewhere around that time & my mom cant get out of work. My in-laws who live 3 hours away will be out of state as well. That’s the only people I know here so I guess I’m screwed.
It’s just such a shame that even when he’s here, I still have no choice but to do everything on my own. I thought after him coming home from deployment I would actually be able to have my husband here to rely on but unfortunately that’s not the case. Even when they’re not deployed they’re still taken away from you to some extent. And what’s pissing me off is that at the end of this year he’ll most likely be deploying again. I’m not pissed he’ll be deploying, I’m pissed that our time together is limited & alot of things keep preventing us from just being a “normal” couple while he’s here. Sigh, I need to go clean something to get my mind of off this lol.
